It isn't true that we need absence and loneliness. It isn't true. It's only in your mind my love. You are afraid of I don't know what. You have always been remote. I could tell you that, but now its as if you stood on a threshold and you dared not to step over it. That evening I could not admit to myself how wrong everything was, but today I know why I felt obliged to turn away when you came close to me. This turning away made me safe. I saw myself transformed into a frightful and hideous creature, a woman beyond pale. Dusk was gathering.